DAYS 49 – 71
I’m heart un-coordinated. I trip over my veins and arteries like my words. But I dance, I make sounds when I human because I know one day I’ll be articulate again. Aspirate all the right words and be the body that attracts you. One day I’ll human as I wanna, as soon as I stop bruising my own head on the same walls. Until then, here’s 23 steps in the right direction.
FULL PLAYLIST ON YOUTUBE. PHOTOCREDIT: HYPERDECADENCE.
/ DAY 49 /
IN THE GROUND, WE BURY
ALL THE THINGS WE CARRIED
NOW WE’RE DOWN TO OUR BARE FEET
/ DAY 50 /
CAN’T KEEP MY HANDS TO MYSELF
THINK I’LL DUST THEM OFF
PUT EM BACK ON THE SHELF
/ DAY 51 /
IF YOU KEEP LOOKING BACK IN TIME
YOU ARE GONNA LOSE YOUR MIND
BECAUSE EVERYTHING’S IN FRONT OF YOU
/ DAY 52 /
THERE’S BEEN TIMES THAT
I DIDN’T THINK I COULD LAST LONG
BUT NOW I THINK I’M ABLE TO CARRY ON
/ DAY 53 /
CHANGE IS GONNA COME
YOU BETTER DANCE ON IT
/ DAY 54 /
GOTTA RUN, GOTTA RUN, GOTTA RUN
MAKE IT OR DIE
/ DAY 55 /
YOUR SPINE SITTING UP A LITTLE STRAIGHTER
WHEN YOUR EYES LOCK ONTO MINE
AND I THINK I KNOW WHAT’S ON YOUR MIND
/ DAY 56 /
I DON’T CARE WHAT ANYBODY THINKS
HOW LONG HAVE I BEEN HERE
MY TIME IS MESSED UP
AND I’M SAT HERE, HOPING MY DREAMS COME TRUE
/ DAY 57 /
YOU KNOW YOU WANT MORE, LET’S BE REAL
YOU MAKE ME MAD AND YOU KNOW IT
YOU DON’T KNOW WHERE I’VE BEEN
/ DAY 58 /
I’M CHOKING ON BREATH I CAN’T CATCH
IT’S ALL I CAN DO
I CAN’T STAND TO LOSE
/ DAY 59 /
STAYING ON MY TOES FOR SO LONG
FEEL LIKE MY SKIN GONNA FADE
USED TO RUN AWAY FROM THE PRESSURE
/ DAY 60/
WHAT YOU KNOW ABOUT YOURSELF?
/ DAY 61/
I DON’T GET NO KICKS FROM COMPLAINING
HOW WILL WE EVER GET BY?
GUESS WE WON’T KNOW TILL WE TRY
/ DAY 62 /
I SPEND ALL DAY TRYING TO BE OK
BUT OK COMES AND GOES
/ DAY 63 /
SHADOW, TAKE ME DOWN WITH YOU
FOR THE LAST TIME
/ DAY 64 /
THIS MUSIC GIVES TO ME AN EMOTION
I’M SO ALIVE
/ DAY 65 /
YOU DESIGNED ALL THE LINES
AND PROTECT ALL THE LIES
ERASE THE NIGHT
/ DAY 66 /
I NEED TO BREAK FREE FROM A MEMORY
MAKE IT TWO, NO THREE
TEACH ME HOW TO FORGET
/ DAY 67 /
AND THERE’S A REASON
I WAKE UP ALONE IN STRANGE PLACES
A REASON I SEE MYSELF IN A MILLION FACES
SO COME ON, MOTHERFUCKER, YOU SURVIVED
YOU GOTTA GIVE YOURSELF A BREAK
/ DAY 68 /
LOST MYSELF, I WANT TO BELONG
TIRED OF BEING A STRANGER TO MYSELF
/ DAY 69 /
AND IT’S OVER, IT’S OVER
COME OVER HERE AND SIT NEXT TO ME
I’LL TAKE YOU HIGHER
/ DAY 70 /
GET UP, GET UP TONIGHT
I’LL BE THE ONE TO SHOW YOU YOUR BRIGHTSIDE
/ DAY 71 /
WE’RE STARTING NEW, LETTING LOOSE
YOU’RE DANCING JUST TO BE COOL
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