I CAN’T SHAKE IT LOOSE,
THESE MEMORIES I DIDN’T CHOOSE

On your birthday, you want to be in/on time. But I can’t help but think about how I am neither. The past 9 years, I tried existing out of time, out of existence from anyone who knew me. Like, I’d see an eye looking at me. And I’d vanish. Not that anyone looked my way. But just in case. In the oddball chance that someone remembered I was human, I’d ghost like the ghost heart I was. That I called myself. Poof, and nothing but the fading lights of my spirit would be standing in the space/time of my shoes.

the last year, I came to realize that no matter how ephemeral we think we are, time–at least in the physics I exist in–is linear. And it will pass you by. And so this playlist is a part of a larger DJ set, like moments that make up part of your life. To show the urgency of now. 2893 seconds to ground yourself in the current moment. Because you can race against clocks, angrily announce your non-existence, but they don’t care, bitch.

FULL PLAYLIST AT YOUTUBE. PHOTO COURTESY OF SPINNIN RECORDS.

THERE IS NO TRUTH IN ABSOLUTES
THESE MEMORIES
SO EASILY MISCONSTRUED

FLASHBACK
RATTLING AROUND MY EARDRUM
IT’S A PSYCHOLOGICAL PHENOMENON

FLASHBACK COMING

FROM THE RIGHT SIDE OF MY BRAIN
WHEN THESE THINGS HAPPEN

EITHER YOU KILL YOURSELF

OR MAKE SURE SOMETHING IS BORN

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